Mark Hoppus didn’t take Blink-182’s breakup flippantly.
The 53-year-old musician revealed in his new memoir, “Fahrenheit-182,” that he had suicidal ideas when the band broke up in 2005.
“When Blink fell apart, I lost everything. I lost my direction, I lost my confidence, I lost my sense of self,” Hoppus wrote, based on Individuals.
“I didn’t know what I was supposed to do or who I was supposed to be. I’d hear one of our songs playing in a store and have to walk out,” he recalled. “I sank lower and lower. I could tell I was near the bottom when I started finding comfort in the thought of suicide: If it gets bad enough, I can always just kill myself.”
After over 10 years as a gaggle, guitarist Tom DeLonge exited Blink-182 over rising tensions with Hoppus and drummer Travis Barker.
The cut up precipitated Hopper to spiral and ponder taking his personal life, however finally he took issues into his personal palms to assist himself.
“I started talking to a psychiatrist who put me on medications, which helped a lot,” he shared. “It let me take a breath. It allowed me the space in my own head to say, ‘You’re being a d–k, Mark. Knock it off.’”
Whereas DeLonge shaped his personal band referred to as Angels & Airwaves, Hoppus and Barker created +44. However come 2009, Blink-182 reunited and the trio launched their album “Neighborhood” two years later.
DeLonge give up the band for a second time in 2015, however rejoined once more in 2023.
In his memoir, Hoppus additionally opened up about his childhood earlier than fame and his public battle with most cancers in 2021.
The “All the Small Things” singer beforehand mentioned that he contemplated suicide after he was recognized with stage 4 lymphoma.
“I was in our living room crying and telling my wife [Skye Hoppus], ‘I don’t know if I can do this,’” he informed Individuals in 2022. “She was like, ‘Well, what are you going to do, kill yourself?’ And that’s exactly what I was thinking. It was pretty dark.”
Hoppus mentioned that his spouse helped him overcome his darkish ideas on the time. He finally introduced he was cancer-free in September 2021.
Chatting with The Guardian whereas selling his memoir, Hoppus recalled that he “really thought I was going to die” throughout his troublesome chemotherapy therapy.
“And, in a way, it absolutely was so freeing,” he admitted. “I’d spent my whole life hypervigilant, thinking: what’s the worst thing that could happen? And, oh, it’s here now, I’m dealing with it and it still sucks.”
“The physical pain and exhaustion of the chemo, mixed with the steroids and all the other drugs, just crushed me for months on end,” Hoppus continued, including that his most cancers battle truly “healed” his friendship with DeLonge.
“It brought back friendships that I hadn’t had in years. From day one, [DeLonge] was like: ‘What do you need? I’m there,’” Hoppus recalled. “In that friendship and the love and support of people around me, I thought: you know what? I’ve had a pretty awesome life.”
Blink-182 introduced on Tuesday their 2025 US tour “Missionary Impossible.”
