Kate Cassidy is opening up concerning the loss of life of her boyfriend Liam Payne.
The 25-year-old shared it has been “really hard to accept” dropping the previous One Path member after his tragic loss of life in October after falling off a resort balcony in Argentina.
“I find myself talking about him so much in the present tense … I don’t even feel the need to correct myself because that’s part of my healing journey,” Cassidy stated whereas on the UK morning present Lorraine on Wednesday. “I’m still working on accepting the fact that he’s not here anymore, so it’s hard for me to refer to him in the past tense.”
“When I do refer to him in the past tense, it almost stings that little bit more,” the influencer continued earlier than changing into emotional. “I never would have thought that I would be talking about him in the past tense, so it’s definitely really hard to accept.”
Cassidy took a second to replicate on the ebbs and flows of grief, revealing that “sometimes it’s hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.”
She added, nonetheless, that she does have “my better days [and] harder days.”
“It is really hard. I’ve never lost anybody before close to me so this is my first time dealing with anything like this and going through this grief and healing journey,” Cassidy shared. “…I am trying to do my best. I have my better days, I have my harder days. But I’m surrounded by such a great support system.”
The TikToker was on trip with Payne in Argentina however left days earlier than he died.
Cassidy had beforehand said she left to be residence with the canine she shared with Payne, Nala. Now, she stated the pup has “helped with her healing journey” since dropping the musician.
“Whether it’s a five-minute walk or 20-minute walk, first thing in the morning [it] just wakes me up and refreshes my mind,” she stated. “Instead of laying in bed all day just scrolling through social media or old photos, it gets me out of bed and really, really helps my mindset and my mental health.”
Cassidy shared that she is “trying to be as productive as I can,“ doing “small things like yoga” to additionally assist enhance her headspace and thanked her “friends [and] family, just for being there for me.”
She added: “I’ll always have so much love for him … His presence was just comforting and warming and that’s something that I’ll never forget about him.”
Cassidy’s interview comes on the heels of talking with The Solar final month for the primary time since Payne’s loss of life.
On the time, she informed the outlet she wished she had stayed in Argentina as an alternative of heading again to their Florida residence.
“Liam was in such a good headspace when I left Argentina,” she stated in an interview revealed Feb. 5. “We were in such a great place, just full of love; he was so happy and positive. And I just can’t even believe the way things truly ended.”
Payne fell to his loss of life from the third ground of his resort balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina, on Oct. 16 on the age of 31.
Medical officers confirmed that the star had a “cranial fracture and extremely serious injuries that led to his immediate death.”
Payne additionally had a poisonous combination of medication in his system on the time of his loss of life, together with crack and so-called “pink cocaine.”
Witnesses informed TMZ the artist was performing “erratic” earlier than his sudden passing. He allegedly smashed his laptop computer within the resort foyer and was carried again to his room earlier than the autumn.
Final month, manslaughter fees towards Payne’s shut buddy Roger Nores and two resort staff have been dismissed. A court docket dominated they couldn’t have completed something to forestall the singer from plunging from his balcony on the CasaSur Palermo resort in Buenos Aires after a drug-fueled evening.
